Sunday, April 09, 2006

whirligig

I feel lately like I'm suffering from one of those fake ailments that people use to describe strange or transitory states of mind. I think I'm perhaps somewhere between "spring fever" and "senioritis" right now. Every time I think about school, it goes something like this:
"Well, tomorrow I have to leave by 9 to get to my 10 AM quartet rehearsal, which gets out at 12, and then I have to go to the post office and hopefully I'll have time to eat, and then I have orchestra and orchestra rep respectively from 2:10 until maybe 6:45 and then I'll be home by 7:45." That's a short day because I get home before 11. And I think about how maybe this summer it won't be like that because even though I'll have a job it probably won't consume 11 or more hours of every single day, and I feel so excited and happy. I get graduation stuff in the mail and I think about how glad I am that I won't have to sacrifice my freaking soul to this school anymore.

4 comments:

Lauren E-C said...

ahhhh. . . . senioritis . . . .

ammie said...

I know! It's actually much worse than anything I experienced in high school, back when I still enjoyed much of what I did in school. Bah.

PocaCosa said...

Tell me about it! I feel that way and I'm about to start a dissertation. Lots of self-pity happening because of that one...

You know that hour between leaving for school and getting to school? I have that too, and I'm trying to figure out how to make it the most relaxing and escapist hour of the day. So far, only my iPod really helps. Any ideas?

ammie said...

My commute is largely walking or waiting for my transfer (and it's often to cold to do much with that part of it) so I mostly people-watch and look out the window, which is still nice. And when I go downtown, I read. It's about the only time/place I'm able to do that nowadays, it's so nice! I read like all of that Foucault book a few months ago on trains.