So here's another reason I haven't been writing: I'm going to Germany. For a month, almost, and I leave six days from now. I'm pretty sure I forgot to mention this, but my amazing new music group--which I am a part of because I took Music and Gender at NU with the founder and she later looked me up on myspace, of all places--got accepted to a fancy-schmancy music festival just outside of Frankfurt, and I'll be playing my ass off for two weeks on a concert program that gives me headaches and that includes the first piece I've ever been given that I couldn't even read. (Seriously.) After that? A trip to a farm in the Black Forest, and then... Somewhere else. Berlin? France, somewhere? Amsterdam, Copenhagen? I haven't decided--I'm taking suggestions though--but hopefully I'll be ready to tell you all about it, either while it's happening or after I get back.
I'm both excited and terrified. How much can change in a month? When I flip through all those empty pages in my planner, all those days with no work, no appointments, no dinners or coffees or meetings or anything, I get a little freaked out. My life here has felt so insane for so long that the thought of just abandoning ship (as it were), of going out alone and having so little agenda, is incomprehensible. I think that actually that means that this trip is necessary. I need a break, to reset and get myself back to myself instead of feeling tugged apart, smashed flat between all of my many and mostly beloved obligations. My most important rule is that I have to love myself if I want to love anyone else well, and lately there has simply been no time. Here, suddenly, there is nothing but time. It's like jumping into cold water.
But until my plane leaves next Thursday I'm short on time and, except for today apparently, words (I haven't written a thing in the past nearly-month, which is sort of scary), so I won't belabor you any longer. Wish me a happy journey, write me an email to remind me that I'm coming back, and enjoy your summers.
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So excited for you! If you want suggestions, I really enjoyed Innsbruck, Austria. You could tour Swarovski Crystal World. And the only place in Germany I've been to is Garmisch-Partenkirchen, which is a cute little tourist town.
Have a happy trip, friend! I hope you find yourself charmed by the experience of letting go of your daily life for a few weeks, and that the space opened up by this trip is filled with wonders. I can't wait to hear about it, whenever you are able to return to this space.
Take good care of yourself! xo
I vote Amsterdam. Hookers and Anne Frank. Need I say more?
If it were me, I'd go to France - but that's because it's always been number one on my list of places I want to visit before I die (or would die to visit). Have a wonderful trip, wherever you go!
It sounds amazing, and I hope we get to hear stories about the trip! Enjoy yourself!
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